It is easy to 'talk the talk of love', but far from easy to 'walk the walk of love'!!!!!!!
Read it somewhere. it is easy to 'talk the talk of love', but far from easy to 'walk the walk of love'. love in itself is a very strong word. many people have different definitions of it.. i am sure if you would google it, you would come up with zillions of pages which will describe what love is..
for me, love is complicated. the more i'v tried to explore this four letter word, the more iv felt i am trapped in it.. some months back, i had written a post which said that if ever you feel you are confused in your life, take a step back and analyze the situation as a third person.. but dont know why,now i feel that in some cases, even this doesnt work. sometimes the situation is like a gamble.. you dont know how, when and why you have got trapped in that gamble that even judging it as a third person would leave you nowhere.
The strangest part is, being in a situation in real sense is lot more challenging than merely "critically examining" it. And honestly, I never understood this before. Normal behavior of humans it to judge other people and that's what even I used to do when any one my friends used to discuss "their" stories. Sometimes, I even used to mock at them behind their backs thinking how foolish they were. I feel bad today. I distinctly remember a friend, who was supposedly so much in love with a guy that she even fasted for him for his long life.. On the contrary, the guy used to give a damn about her. He used to ignore her calls, her texts, anything she did. Whenever this friend of mine used to share all these things with me, I used to laugh, make fun of her and even wonder why my friend is being so stupid. I never tried to understand her story, her part, maybe her so called "emotions" for him.. I started judging her and somewhere subconsciously I had made a image of her.. "She is a fool":.. Never realized maybe some day someone else can think of me as a fool too.
I feel lost, because I feel I am standing in my friends shoes today. I did a mistake. I fell in love with someone who never reciprocated the same way. It happened for the first time in my life I felt I am crazy for someone and every time I did something out of the way for him, it felt right. He never reciprocated the same way, never appreciated what I did. And , I have no idea what made me love him so much , but yes I did think that it maybe that is what love is.. loving someone unconditionally even if that person doesnt fulfill your expectations.. maybe it was one sided, but it felt right at that time. Gradually, it faded.. I realized that he and I are not destined to be together.. many reasons, many situations.. And it ended.. I realized the wrong doings on my part.. But, when my friends ask me the same question now .. what made me fall so madly in love with him when he never reciprocated back , I have no idea what to say. I feel I am judged.. The same things which I used to tell my friend are being told to me. It is a sinking feeling.. Not because I am feeling I am judged, but because I don't have answers to their questions.. Maybe my blog line is rightly justified in this case, "It is all about perspective". Learnt from my experience too.. No one is wrong, it is the situation and perception that makes a person differentiate between denial and reality,, :)..
Read it somewhere. it is easy to 'talk the talk of love', but far from easy to 'walk the walk of love'. love in itself is a very strong word. many people have different definitions of it.. i am sure if you would google it, you would come up with zillions of pages which will describe what love is..
for me, love is complicated. the more i'v tried to explore this four letter word, the more iv felt i am trapped in it.. some months back, i had written a post which said that if ever you feel you are confused in your life, take a step back and analyze the situation as a third person.. but dont know why,now i feel that in some cases, even this doesnt work. sometimes the situation is like a gamble.. you dont know how, when and why you have got trapped in that gamble that even judging it as a third person would leave you nowhere.
The strangest part is, being in a situation in real sense is lot more challenging than merely "critically examining" it. And honestly, I never understood this before. Normal behavior of humans it to judge other people and that's what even I used to do when any one my friends used to discuss "their" stories. Sometimes, I even used to mock at them behind their backs thinking how foolish they were. I feel bad today. I distinctly remember a friend, who was supposedly so much in love with a guy that she even fasted for him for his long life.. On the contrary, the guy used to give a damn about her. He used to ignore her calls, her texts, anything she did. Whenever this friend of mine used to share all these things with me, I used to laugh, make fun of her and even wonder why my friend is being so stupid. I never tried to understand her story, her part, maybe her so called "emotions" for him.. I started judging her and somewhere subconsciously I had made a image of her.. "She is a fool":.. Never realized maybe some day someone else can think of me as a fool too.
I feel lost, because I feel I am standing in my friends shoes today. I did a mistake. I fell in love with someone who never reciprocated the same way. It happened for the first time in my life I felt I am crazy for someone and every time I did something out of the way for him, it felt right. He never reciprocated the same way, never appreciated what I did. And , I have no idea what made me love him so much , but yes I did think that it maybe that is what love is.. loving someone unconditionally even if that person doesnt fulfill your expectations.. maybe it was one sided, but it felt right at that time. Gradually, it faded.. I realized that he and I are not destined to be together.. many reasons, many situations.. And it ended.. I realized the wrong doings on my part.. But, when my friends ask me the same question now .. what made me fall so madly in love with him when he never reciprocated back , I have no idea what to say. I feel I am judged.. The same things which I used to tell my friend are being told to me. It is a sinking feeling.. Not because I am feeling I am judged, but because I don't have answers to their questions.. Maybe my blog line is rightly justified in this case, "It is all about perspective". Learnt from my experience too.. No one is wrong, it is the situation and perception that makes a person differentiate between denial and reality,, :)..
